Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Tuesday night and I'm at home enjoying a beer that I brewed myself and some quiet time before I delve back into an old script and begin yet another revision....

Actually, I'm chewing on this beer that I brewed six months ago. There is so much sediment in this bottle that I'll have to brush my teeth afterwards just to get the grit off. But I digress.

Today was a rest day, so I did not run or cross train. I actually slept in this morning after staying up late to watch "Punch-Drunk Love". Adam Sandler is really good in it. I'm curious to see what he does next dramatically. He definitely has some range (never thought I'd hear myself say that).

Spend part of the day stressing over my job. The company is making more cuts and I never feel like I'm safe from the axe. It's a stressful dilemma for anyone, but compounded more by the fact that we need the benefits so badly. I can't imagine trying to pay for all of the medication without insurance. Or, trying to pay for the insurance without a company to cover some of the costs. It's probably my biggest worry when it comes to my job.

Today I really felt like, "Damn, did I make the right decision coming out here?" I mean, if I were a teacher, would I be faced with this fear of cutbacks on a regular basis. This is really a messed up situation because the entertainment industry is not a stable job industry to begin with. And I've known that since day one. Especially for writers; that is, writers who are getting paid to write. I dream of the day when someone wants ME to write a script for them. But would I be able to quit this job? Not unless they're paying a lot of money.

Met with a friend of mine yesterday who is a voice over agent. We'll call him Wes (because, you know, that's his name). Anyway, Wes is going to send a couple of my scripts to a friend of his who is a manager. He doesn't promise anything. To be honest, I don't expect anything to happen. I've gotten so used to being turned down I feel like I'm in 7th grade again. Her name was Liz Gray and I.... er, never mind.

I'm trying to figure out what scripts to send. I know "King's Highway" will be one of them, and of course "The Mind's Eye". Should I send 2 more? And what should they be? I know from my experience on "King's Highway" that my work will appeal to people, but reading is subjective. I guess I'll send "Finding the Way" (my 80's high school script) and "Soulless" (homage to Carpenter movies w/ a clone twist) and we'll go from there. What harm can be done? If they say no thanks, well, I've heard that before.

Supposed to meet with Ryan and other El Charro gang on Thursday to go over what will probably be a page 1 rewrite. At the moment I'm not too thrilled, but I'll wait to see what they show me.

On that note, I'll say goodnight.

Wouldn't it be nice if I weren’t so down all the time? Here's a positive note to end on: I got a wonderful email from my good friend Brian McMahon today. Brian and I were college roommates and had several adventures in college. I almost burned down our apartment in his room. And I reestablished contact with another college friend, Brody McDonald, who starred in my senior film.

There, doesn't that fell better. All nice and cheery.


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